Fitting in ...should I just settle for that term and blend in my surrounding.. Camouflage , hidden, disappeared.. A near shadow of my individuality,.. Is this the comfort zone? Or the real fitting in is to be one with myself , my soul exposed as a aura, as the needle in the haystack... Remembered.. different .. Or just plain weird...well life is too short... Like a cloud of smoke , blown carried away by the wind .. Then faded, best to exist...so what side have I chose . The side that I already have chosen, which define myself , which is also entwine with my emotions .. Feelings .. Or just a plane thought..which, I may be that needle in the hay stack .. But there are so many that are just like me .. So who to say that there is only one needle dwelling within.. If u feel like me , we are already the ones who are fitted , un-compromised by the norm of society , separated , looked on different .. A footstep taken by few .. But admired by most .. Stomp as hard as you can and make your foot print solid.. And enjoy the imprinted within others ..the true fitting in.. Engraved.. A Subcontinent to the rest.
What must I do.. To fill in your emptiness .. Which you don't allow me to fill ... Is it the guilt that you believe you will soon be part of my emptiness and cause me the pain .. A void.. A black hole so to speak ... If not then why push away when u were so close to embrace ... So close so close but yet so far.. The spark that could of ignited the light was shut off.. Muffled .. Blew away .. But yet I believed there was hope .. Something worth fighting for .. The Something is You ... A beauty the one I would adore and love if giving the chance .. Or was my chance given yet I still did not see.. I did see your smile your glow every time my presence was with in your view ... Was that emptiness actually filled in .. But just for a moment .. Was I to be there at all times.. like your favorite chain which rest upon your chest .. With Each beat of your heart ... I would share.. Because the time I have .. Was.. No.. Is willing to be given to you ... I remember I was once told that you fall in love once and it will never be the same .. I believe in this saying .. But I see it different then how everyone else portrait it.. You love once : but who is to say there aren't any other type of love .. And no I'm not talking about the love with in a friendship .. The love you once had and will never get again.. but the new is almost same but in another view which means the old love you have u won't be acquire again.. but acquired a new .. Like in life everyone is different ...and I am too .. Let me be your healer and mend the open wound in your soul .. Let me be your north star to point u in the right direction out of the emptiness ... A new light a new warmth a new fulfillment..
